You’re 4!!! “Four ears old! 4-3-2-and then-1!”
Kid. How can I sum up your short, but dazzling life? You have changed our lives in ways I knew you would and in other ways I never expected and have taken me by complete, but pleasant, surprise. You save me everyday. You were not brought on this planet for that purpose, but having you around is like having a constant life jacket. You teach me to be kind, to lead by example, to not give up. I mean it when I say that you are my guiding light, my north star. You keep me on course as a side effect of having been brought to me. Even when I might feel like giving up, having you here is a constant reminder that you are worth it — you are worth being better for, and I hope that one day you will be able to see that and never have to question your worth. Never never.
You are the kindest, sweetest, most sensitive person I’ve ever met and you dazzle me. Dazzle. Don’t ever, ever, ever be lead to believe that all men are tough, or that you need to win any kind of popularity contest. Just be you. Your intuition is remarkable and I hope that I can teach you to use that when your shyness gets the better of you. That I can teach you to trust yourself, to be brave when you are not. To be kind to others when they don’t deserve it, and to stick up for yourself when you need to. I hope that you remain a quirky kid, that you never have to feel pressured to be like others. That you are so comfortable with who you are that having a beat up old truck as your first car will not faze you, because that is likely to happen! You are always, always enough. Always. And you will forever have two proud people in your corner rooting for you NO MATTER WHAT. I hope that we do well to show you that, so that you never have to question it. There is nothing you can do to disappoint me. I love you and will always love you no matter who you decide to be. I hope that I can instill a sense of love for yourself so that you never have to wonder if you are enough. You are always enough.
We are so lucky to have you. Blessed. Honored. Grateful. All of the above. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And all I can say is thank you. Thank you for loving me when I’m unloveable, forgiving me when I don’t deserve it, but mostly thank you for being you. You’re a star kid. And these last 4 years with you have been the best I could have ever hoped for. I love you.
Happy Birthday, beautiful boy. Let’s celebrate your beautiful life right.